I enjoy all kinds of music... I gravitate towards Metal, pop, rock, edm music the most though.

She is one of my favorite artists right now i just went to her concert last month and got to go on stage

These guys are amazing and have been on repeat lately

She's been my sad girl music with all the stuff I have going on

And this is another glimpse into the music I love

I will have to put a smaller Playlist together for you

Sad girl story....

It's been a lot, honestly.

My husband and I were together for 17 years, married for 8. We opened our marriage several years ago, but over the last year everything became incredibly unhealthy. There was another partner involved, and over time I found myself constantly being pushed aside, my boundaries weren't respected, and I spent a long time trying to make everyone else happy while losing myself in the process.

I eventually realized I couldn't keep living that way, so I made the decision to separate and move forward with a divorce. Since then I've been packing up my home, getting it ready to sell, untangling a life we'd built together, and grieving someone. It's been a strange kind of loss because I'm mourning not just the relationship, but a future.

I'm doing sooo much better than I was a couple of months ago, but some days the sadness still sneaks up on me. But I am so much more myself than I have been for the past ywar with everything going on and that feels amazing.

I can definitely understand why it feels like wasted time. But I also think all we can really do is learn from our experiences and use them to become better versions of ourselves moving forward.

For a while, I thought I'd failed at polyamory. But after stepping back and doing a lot of reflecting, I realized that what I was experiencing was being called polyamory, but it wasn't actually healthy polyamory. There was too much disrespect, poor communication, and crossed boundaries. Those things would've destroyed any relationship structure, monogamous or poly.

That realization actually brought me a lot of peace, because it helped me stop blaming myself for something that wasn't entirely mine to carry.

I hadn't really thought about it that way before, but there was definitely an element of that.

Can I ask what your communication expectations look like? Do you prefer talking every day, checking in throughout the day, or something else?

Hehehe, you are cute. ☺️😉

No, I was just curious. I know some people prefer minimal texting while others like talking throughout the day. I'm just trying to understand your communication style and what your expectations are as we get to know each other. How often do you usually like to communicate with someone you're interested in having as a sub?

Hehehe, maybe just a little. 😏

I actually really like that. Consistency and feeling included are both important to me.

I don't expect someone to text me every waking minute, but I do enjoy talking throughout the day and feeling connected. And I like the idea of building something where everyone feels comfortable enough to be open and communicate honestly.

It sounds like you put a lot of value on creating real relationships, not just scenes, and I respect that.

Sir, I'm looking forward to it 😉😏

Still packing, I feel like that's all I do lately lol

I'm almost done last day of it until the house sells.

What are you doing?

Hmmmm more self care i love it

I actually took vacation time to get my house ready to go on the market. So I have 7 days off

But in a normal week yes

Yes, Sir I do. I need to finish getting the house ready. My goal was to have everything done by Tuesday

It's going to be a wonderful evening for you.

No, Sir not at all. Envious of the ride/Fun evening that is in store for you.

When you are able to look i can make Thursday a day to drive down and see you

I haven't done psychedelics in a while, and only mushrooms. But I do enjoy them

Yes, Sir I believe that could work out

Yes, Sir I love being used and I definitely want you to use me.

Oh, how so, Sir?

Am I to be surprised or are you going to give me a sneak peak?

I look forward to seeing the difference the, Sir 🫠🫠😘😘

Just relax after a long day

Yes, Sir I understand. I'm sorry you are not like everyone else and that was my mistake to even put you in that category.

Thank you for sharing that with me, I have a little bit on knowledge on it.

🫠🫠Thank you, Sir

What can I do for you, Sir?

Yes, Sir I can do that for you.

And I understand i hope you enjoy your ride.

I will get my task done for you, Sir 😘😘

Yes, Sir

I absolutely love the vibe that y'all have going right now

Thank you, Sir!

Of course I could be out having brunch or having fun like a normal person.... but I'm here painting naked on a sunday

Oh, is that so Sir?

Well now you've got my curiosity, Sir. 👀

What exactly do you think you're going to need me for?

🫠🫠🫠 Yes, Sir

Take it like a good girl and say Thank you, Sir

Sir, I can be there on Thursday, I wish I could be there sooner but sadly can't 😔😔

I'm very much looking forward to it!