I will have to put a smaller Playlist together for you

Sad girl story....

It's been a lot, honestly.

My husband and I were together for 17 years, married for 8. We opened our marriage several years ago, but over the last year everything became incredibly unhealthy. There was another partner involved, and over time I found myself constantly being pushed aside, my boundaries weren't respected, and I spent a long time trying to make everyone else happy while losing myself in the process.

I eventually realized I couldn't keep living that way, so I made the decision to separate and move forward with a divorce. Since then I've been packing up my home, getting it ready to sell, untangling a life we'd built together, and grieving someone. It's been a strange kind of loss because I'm mourning not just the relationship, but a future.

I'm doing sooo much better than I was a couple of months ago, but some days the sadness still sneaks up on me. But I am so much more myself than I have been for the past ywar with everything going on and that feels amazing.

I can definitely understand why it feels like wasted time. But I also think all we can really do is learn from our experiences and use them to become better versions of ourselves moving forward.

For a while, I thought I'd failed at polyamory. But after stepping back and doing a lot of reflecting, I realized that what I was experiencing was being called polyamory, but it wasn't actually healthy polyamory. There was too much disrespect, poor communication, and crossed boundaries. Those things would've destroyed any relationship structure, monogamous or poly.

That realization actually brought me a lot of peace, because it helped me stop blaming myself for something that wasn't entirely mine to carry.

I hadn't really thought about it that way before, but there was definitely an element of that.

Can I ask what your communication expectations look like? Do you prefer talking every day, checking in throughout the day, or something else?

Hehehe, you are cute. ☺️😉

No, I was just curious. I know some people prefer minimal texting while others like talking throughout the day. I'm just trying to understand your communication style and what your expectations are as we get to know each other. How often do you usually like to communicate with someone you're interested in having as a sub?

Hehehe, maybe just a little. 😏

Sir, I'm looking forward to it 😉😏

Still packing, I feel like that's all I do lately lol

I'm almost done last day of it until the house sells.

What are you doing?

Hmmmm more self care i love it

I actually took vacation time to get my house ready to go on the market. So I have 7 days off

Yes, Sir I do. I need to finish getting the house ready. My goal was to have everything done by Tuesday

It's going to be a wonderful evening for you.

No, Sir not at all. Envious of the ride/Fun evening that is in store for you.

When you are able to look i can make Thursday a day to drive down and see you

I haven't done psychedelics in a while, and only mushrooms. But I do enjoy them

Yes, Sir I love being used and I definitely want you to use me.

Oh, how so, Sir?

Am I to be surprised or are you going to give me a sneak peak?

I look forward to seeing the difference the, Sir 🫠🫠😘😘

Just relax after a long day

Yes, Sir I understand. I'm sorry you are not like everyone else and that was my mistake to even put you in that category.

🫠🫠Thank you, Sir

What can I do for you, Sir?

Yes, Sir I can do that for you.

And I understand i hope you enjoy your ride.

I will get my task done for you, Sir 😘😘

Yes, Sir

I absolutely love the vibe that y'all have going right now

Thank you, Sir!

📎Of course I could be out having brunch or having fun like a normal person.... but I'm here painting naked on a sunday

Oh, is that so Sir?

🫠🫠🫠 Yes, Sir

Take it like a good girl and say Thank you, Sir

Sir, I can be there on Thursday, I wish I could be there sooner but sadly can't 😔😔

I'm very much looking forward to it!

That's a beautiful farmer's market and I am very envious I'm not there! Thats some eye candy for a chef 👀👀

They are very cute, I can understand why!

Yes, I am 💜💜

I am a Head Chef/Food and Beverage Director for a Mental health and Rehabilitation facility.

No human kids just a Furry one, and her name is Haze 💜

And I am about to be in the process of getting a divorce.

No worries, you're getting to know me, there will be repeated questions in the future too ☺️

Well, I absolutely would love to know more about you. ☺️

You've shared some personal things with me already, and of course I read your profile, but I know there's always more to someone than what fits in a bio.

What's something about yourself that you don't usually get the chance to tell people?

What is something you're passionate about outside of the lifestyle?

You told me that your daughters were coming to see you most likely coming next weekend but other than that not much else

Thank you for sharing that with me, Sir. 💜

Your girls are at fun ages... hormones and all. 😅 Do you get to spend much time with them?

ADHD really can be your best friend or your worst enemy sometimes. And with everything we've learned over the years, I think we're much better at recognizing when someone may be on the spectrum than we used to be, and it's so much more accepted and thought of as "normal" because it seems so many people are nerodivergent, like you said you believe you are on the spectrum too, I also believe I am as well.

☺️☺️ She's around 5.

I thought i remembered seeing some animals on your profile, do you have any animals?

Attempting? I bet you'll have it up and running in no time. ☺️

You definitely have a full day unfolding. I don't think you're going to have much downtime today.

I finished painting and packing for the day. Now I just have some cleanup left, then I'm driving about an hour to go see some friends I haven't seen in a little while and just relax with them for the evening. 💜

Yes, I smoke weed and drink/eat edibles.

Do you smoke weed?

I've only tried mushrooms, and that was years ago. I really enjoyed them though

Noted 📝

What happened? If you don't mind me asking, of course. You have me curious about the teachable moment.

Understandable. We'll it seems like this uncovered something and I like when conflict comes up, your instinct is to slow down, teach, and work through it instead of just reacting. 💜

Once i get back from my friends house tonight I can do that for you, Sir 😈

📎Outfit 1 or 2?

Just going to hang out with friends thought you would want to see and help me choose what I would wear